antgoo

I feel like crap and really just need to vent. If you don’t want to read my bitching and moaning, please skip this entry.

I think I’m depressed. Call it Seasonal Affective Disorder, call it plain sad… I’m depressed. Actually, it comes and goes. One minute, I’ll be fine and the next minute, I’m not. I feel like shit.

I think it’s this city. I really only have 3 friends in this town, so I end up spending a ton of time just sitting in my apartment alone… and what a shitty apartment it is! This place is too small for my stuff. It’s always cold and there’s a fucking rodent living in my ceiling. I’m not sure if it’s a rat or a squirrel, but it’s there and I hate it.

But then, maybe it’s not the town. Maybe it’s me. I’ve not been happy since I moved back to Augusta. There’s never enough money to cover my expenses, which is the reason I live in this shit hole of an apartment. It’s also the reason why sitting at home is how I spend my weekends, instead of getting out like everyone else my age.

I can’t continue to live like this… major changes need to happen in my life.